funny thing about writing

funny thing about writing

Funny thing about writing, at first it seemed easy then as time moves on, when I try to write, all I experience is sort of a void inside when I sit down and attempt to put my thoughts in order. I don't think this is because there is not a lot of 'stuff' for me to write about; to sort out so to speak, for life is a splendid thing offering me the chance to experience, to grow and learn.... and also to write about it all, well at least some of it..... but because discipline is needed and of course that takes work doesn't it(?), then it takes a certain about of dedication to continue in this endeavor, even if I will be the only one reading what I write. I am not lazy but I have been known to lack discipline in certain areas of my life; perhaps another as just shown up that I need to work on.

I suppose that anything in life that is worthwhile needs discipline to keep it going, and I do mean anything. I am no writer but I find it helpful in my life, therefore in order for it to continue to work for me I need to learn to use my energy in such a way that it will help me to accomplish my desire to 'just' write and nothing else. Not to worry if anyone is reading me or not, but to just do it (!) as they say.

So much of each day seems to be just like the one before. Like at my place of work..... I love my job as a caregiver but there are days when I must push myself to do the best job possible for those that I take care of. If I won't or can't then it would be impossible for me to have any kind of career doing anything in my life. Now just doing nothing and being lazy is really harder, at least for me, than actually working or doing something creative and useful no matter how hard it is to do it, for after all we are all meant to do something, to do our best no matter what the obstacles are that we encounter, large or small.

Many years ago when I was in my mid 20's I worked in construction for a short time. I had a low paying job just cleaning up after the construction crew for 8 hours a day and yes you could call the job boring. One member of my crew spent most of his time trying to get out of work, moving around hiding from the boss etc. Now from my perspective he was making his day a lot harder, would have been easier if he just worked, just did it and went home at the end of the day. Well he was fired in a few days so the problem was taken care of for him, he did not have to work anymore or worry about being caught; he just had to do it for free I guess.

So writing has taken me to a place where I need to slow down a little and take one thing at a time to write about, to delve into and to see what comes out of it for me. So hopefully I will be able to write everyday a small post that will bring me closer to coming to some kind of understanding of myself and my life.

Peace
Mitch

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