Joy is there

05.31.06 (5:17 pm)   [edit]
  
 



Joy is there
The light ever present enveloping
Upholding the one loved.
Often hidden but at work none the less even if in secret.
Slowly bringing to light the fruit long in coming
Overcoming the darkness of fear
Depression
Failure
That often haunts those who seek the good
The conflict often wounding
Forcing the broken to choose to move forward
To trust
That Joy will win out in the end
No matter how bleak it seems.


Life is not dark
Though at times it seems so
Suffering and evil seemingly strong
Covering the world in its viselike grip,
Will one day end.
The light is slow in its work,
Patient,
Allowing life to takes it course
Until one by one we are called home
Into the light
Where the mystery answered in part continues to unfold,
To dive deeper into this love is our eternal joy,
Our calling
To always plunge deeper into the center we have never left.

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Each day

05.30.06 (4:09 pm)   [edit]
Each day magnify

Each day so much like one before it
Just little differences
That make some stand out,
Remembered,
Even pondered,
While the rest sink into forgetfulness,
Oblivion,
Never again to see the light.

Memories hide,
Forgotten,
Buried in the cave beneath thought,
With roots deep,
Alive,
Influencing in secret
That makes us a mystery to ourselves
In how we sometimes are.

Am I my past or am I  my thoughts at this moment?
What will I be in the future?
Perhaps I am none of these.
Something simpler,
Deeper than thought,
Or past and future,
Greater than the present
Deeper than time?

Am I truly who I am only in the present?
This moment,
This thought or experience?
Is the present all I have to stand on?
God’s present is all time
Mine this instant the doorway
Where I truly connect
With the All.

 

 

 

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With its depth

05.29.06 (4:59 pm)   [edit]
The pain of the world  
 





The pain of the world,
Its sorrow,
Weighs heavily in all our hearts,
Some more in touch than others
With its depth.
Many hide from its sting
Becoming tough,
Cynical,
Angry,
Aloof,
Anything to keep empathy,
Compassion,
At bay,
That if allowed to grow
Will make the heart bleed,
Weep,
Moan for all their brothers and sisters,
Suffering with no one to help,
Or to be with.

Does God weep?
Being present to all,
No way to deflect
The agony
Of all the children created.
Since love embraces pain.
The price paid high beyond all measure.
To walk with,
Be one,
With those who struggle
Thru life’s long road,
Leading eventually to healing,
That only God’s love,
Severe,
Seemingly unkind,
Can accomplish.


It is love that gives life,
Any other road taken
Deadens the heart,
Reducing others to objects
To be used,
Then discarded,
Disposable,
Easily replaced,
The only price asked
Is the death of the soul,
Empty,
Artic,
In its loneliness.
Free from the burden of caring
Or feeling for others
Who are icons of Christ in the world.

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Like an infant

05.28.06 (11:13 am)   [edit]
  
 



He is like an infant now
In his geriatric chair
Table up so he cannot fall,
If he tries to stand up on his own.
He does not know he cannot walk


He stills smiles when his name is called
Laughs at jokes
Loves music
Is present to those around
How much no one knows


He leans to his right
Almost over the arm rest
Nothing can be done to make him straight
When ask if he has pain
He responds he is comfortable


Eats only soft foods
Stating to have trouble taking meds
He swallows on good days
With hot oatmeal which he loves,
Soon he will not be able to do even that.


I caress his face
We talk in our own way
His eyes still shine with humor
And responds
When I say I love him and kiss him on his forehead.


He fights when we clean him
Does not know what we are doing
Takes two to do this tango
But it gets done
All happy when it is over.


He just sits
Quiet unless addressed
Sometimes restless
Most of the time not
Unless he is in bed


He will be missed
His presence here long
Seven years
Swiftly pasted
With a shorter future every day


We each for a short time
Shine our light on those around us
Some lights are brighter than others
Some more loving
Edmund is one of those.

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Talk on Resentment, Anger, and Forgiveness

05.27.06 (11:14 am)   [edit]
 





Early years (2 years Old) put in foster home
Became hyper self aware (still am)
No one to depend on
Just myself
Hyper alert in a dark lonely place
This is abandonment
Something every child has to face at one time or another
Mine came sooner rather than later.
Had to be done
Rent problems
Parents came every weekend
I withheld my affection knowing they were leaving again.
Became self contained
Impersonal towards others
Unable to break this
As the years stacked up.


Even knowing my parents did not mean to abandon
Still as a 2 year old that was what it was
A lot of rage from that time
Not rational,
Powerful,
That inner fire
Can erupt at any time.
This is my path
Simply dealing with this issue
Not letting it consume me nor my life.
I am not a victim
That would be too easy
Leading downward.

In thinking of  nature
I am fire
As a force
A volcano
Slumbering for the most part
With magna deep down
Hot
Wanting to express itself
Find relief
From the inner pressure.

My path not allowing this to control my life
Not making others victims of my anger
Seeking to not scapegoat anyone
Or if I do
To apologies
Own up to it
Then move on.

Saw a psychologist at 40
He asked me
Mark what can I do for you?
Doc I replied I am dying
I can feel it
My anger
My constant companion is destroying my body
I have trouble breathing
(Still do all these years later).
Am always angry
Though so far I have been able not to take it out on anyone.
I suppress it
Try to deal with it in a way that is not destructive to other
But perhaps I need help
It seems to be hurting me
I feel it now that I am older.
I am wearing out.
Loseing the battle
No matter how hard I try.
It was a struggle
I disassociated at lot
Frustrating for both me and the Psychologist
In the end he did help me to voice things that I already knew
Just needed to word it in front of somebody
Who could reflect it back for me.
This helped
Thought my anger is a constant companion.
At times I feel like
St Francis and Ghangis Kan
Are sitting across from each other
Unable to communicate.

At times it shows itself as raw power
Erupting from my deepest most hidden part of who I am
Or think I am.
It is painful
Tears my soul
Worse than physical pain
At times I wonder if I will ever be free of it.
Perhaps being fire means just that
Dealing with this inner power in a way that is life serving.
It is simply my path
That I must see to the end.

Each person walks this road
If not with rage and anger
Then it is something else.
An inner wound
Perhaps hidden
Seeking to be noticed
Dealt with
Healed.
To not deal with it
Face it
No matter what the road walked
Is to invite chaos into life
A slow death over many years.
To run from the problem
Is to only make it worse.

 
Letting go
Forgiving
Is the only way to break free
To allow the heart
To be a channel of God’s healing love
Not only for myself
But also for others.
Resentment and hatred
Are intimate,
Just as profound as love,
In the attachment
It has for the one hated or resented.
Not to forgive is to carry a heavy burden
To give power
Mostly unasked for
To the ones
Focused upon

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Talk on anger

05.26.06 (10:53 am)   [edit]
   
 





I have been asked to give a talk on Anger, Resentment, and Forgiveness; a subject I feel I know a lot about, since anger is an issue that I have been dealing with all my life.  I am not an intellectual, so my talks tend to be more autobiographical than anything else, and sometimes it gives me pause when I think about it. 


One of the reasons I like blogging is that I have an avenue that I can simply state what I feel I need to state, and then send it to be read by people who really don’t know me, and don’t see me.  When giving a talk it is an intimate sort of thing for me since I am face to face with a room full of people, who if they don’t know much about me before the talk, certainly will by the time it is over. 


I don’t know why I can’t just get up there and talk in the abstract but I can’t.  One reason is that for some reason the differences between abstract and the practical tend to blur for me.  When studying for instance something abstract, I tend to think of it on a practical level and how I can use it in my own life.  So in my talk’s people get both, which I am not sure is always what people want when attending a talk.  I keep getting asked to come back,  so enough must like it to want more from me. 


When I was younger I would never admit to having anything wrong with me, I had to be perfect, in control, fit body, lots of muscle, last word in every conversation etc.  I must have been a real bore to people.  As I got older I began to see how foolish that was and began to let others know that I have problems, lots of them, and I found it a relief to be able to state that.  I know I told others nothing new, but for me to say it was like letting go of a heavy weight that I was carrying around. 


So yes I get angry easily, seemed to have a lot of it; its roots go way back into my past, and have visited that past to get some understanding of this particular issue.  At times it seems that I have this excess energy that wants to be released, and is on the look out for something for me to blast.  What probably saved me from a lot more pain, and frustration, in my life is that I chose the road of suppression, rather than repression, or simply expressing it to whomever was in front of me.  The shot gun approach to anger never seems to work; at least I have never seen it work for some of my friends.  It seems to just make communication harder, and the isolation deeper; something I want to avoid.


Others are not responsible for this excess anger that I carry around, and as I get older it seems to lessen, but I feel it is a burden I will always carry with me.  Most of my friends don’t know this about me.  I guess it is because I am conscious of it, and there is no unconscious leaking.  What leaks is my more tender side, I am not in touch with it on an emotional level, but others seem to pick that up from me.


Oh well better get my talk ready.

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EMDR

05.25.06 (7:13 pm)   [edit]
 

 

Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR)1 integrates elements of many effective psychotherapies in structured protocols that are designed to maximize treatment effects. These include psychodynamic, cognitive behavioral, interpersonal, experiential, and body-centered therapies2. EMDR is an information processing therapy and uses an eight phase approach.

During EMDR1 the client attends to past and present experiences in brief sequential doses while simultaneously focusing on an external stimulus. Then the client is instructed to let new material become the focus of the next set of dual attention. This sequence of dual attention and personal association is repeated many times in the session.

Eight Phases of Treatment

The first phase is a history taking session during which the therapist assesses the client's readiness for EMDR and develops a treatment plan. Client and therapist identify possible targets for EMDR processing. These include recent distressing events, current situations that elicit emotional disturbance, related historical incidents, and the development of specific skills and behaviors that will be needed by the client in future situations.

During the second phase of treatment, the therapist ensures that the client has adequate methods of handling emotional distress and good coping skills, and that the client is in a relatively stable state. If further stabilization is required, or if additional skills are needed, therapy focuses on providing these. The client is then able to use stress reducing techniques whenever necessary, during or between sessions. However, one goal is not to need these techniques once therapy is complete.

In phase three through six, a target is identified and processed using EMDR procedures. These involve the client identifying the most vivid visual image related to the memory (if available), a negative belief about self, related emotions and body sensations. The client also identifies a preferred positive belief. The validity of the positive belief is rated, as is the intensity of the negative emotions.

After this, the client is instructed to focus on the image, negative thought, and body sensations while simultaneously moving his/her eyes back and forth following the therapist's fingers as they move across his/her field of vision for 20-30 seconds or more, depending upon the need of the client. Athough eye movements are the most commonly used external stimulus, therapists often use auditory tones, tapping, or other types of tactile stimulation. The kind of dual attention and the length of each set is customized to the need of the client. The client is instructed to just notice whatever happens. After this, the clinician instructs the client to let his/her mind go blank and to notice whatever thought, feeling, image, memory, or sensation comes to mind. Depending upon the client's report the clinician will facilitate the next focus of attention. In most cases a client-directed association process is encouraged. This is repeated numerous times throughout the session. If the client becomes distressed or has difficulty with the process, the therapist follows established procedures to help the client resume processing. When the client reports no distress related to the targeted memory, the clinician asks him/her to think of the preferred positive belief that was identified at the beginning of the session, or a better one if it has emerged, and to focus on the incident, while simultaneously engaging in the eye movements. After several sets, clients generally report increased confidence in this positive belief. The therapist checks with the client regarding body sensations. If there are negative sensations, these are processed as above. If there are positive sensations, they are further enhanced.

In phase seven, closure, the therapist asks the client to keep a journal during the week to document any related material that may arise and reminds the client of the self-calming activities that were mastered in phase two.

The next session begins with phase eight, re-evaluation of the previous work, and of progress since the previous session. EMDR treatment ensures processing of all related historical events, current incidents that elicit distress, and future scenarios that will require different responses. The overall goal is produce the most comprehensive and profound treatment effects in the shortest period of time, while simultaneously maintaining a stable client within a balanced system.

After EMDR processing, clients generally report that the emotional distress related to the memory has been eliminated, or greatly decreased, and that they have gained important cognitive insights. Importantly, these emotional and cognitive changes usually result in spontaneous behavioral and personal change, which are further enhanced with standard EMDR procedures.


1Shapiro, F. (2001). Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing: Basic Principles, Protocols and Procedures (2nd ed.). New York: Guilford Press.

2Shapiro, F. (2002). EMDR as an Integrative Psychotherapy Approach: Experts of Diverse Orientations Explore the Paradigm Prism. Washington, DC: American Psychological Association Books.

Copyright 2004, EMDR Institute, Inc.

History of EMDR

In 1987, Francine Shapiro was walking in the park when she realized that eye movements appeared to decrease the negative emotion associated with her own distressing memories1,2. She assumed that eye movements had a desensitizing effect, and when she experimented with this she found that others also had the same response to eye movements. It became apparent however that eye movements by themselves did not create comprehensive therapeutic effects and so Shapiro added other treatment elements, including a cognitive component, and developed a standard procedure that she called Eye Movement Desensitization (EMD)1.

Shapiro then conducted a case study4 and a controlled study1 to test the effectiveness of EMD. In the controlled study, she randomly assigned 22 individuals with traumatic memories to two conditions: half received EMD, and half received the same therapeutic procedure with imagery and detailed description replacing the eye movements. She reported that EMD resulted in significant decreases in ratings of subjective distress and significant increases in ratings of confidence in a positive belief. Participants in the EMD condition reported significantly larger changes than those in the imagery condition.

Shapiro wrote "a single session of the procedure was sufficient to desensitize subjects' traumatic memories, as well as dramatically alter their cognitive assessments6." Unfortunately, Shapiro has often been erroneously cited as claiming that "EMDR can cure [posttraumatic stress disorder] PTSD in one session (F. Shapiro, 1989)."7 Shapiro never made this statement; what she actually wrote was that the EMD procedure "serves to desensitize the anxiety ... not to eliminate all PTSD-related symptomatology and complications, nor to provide coping strategies for the victims8" and reported "an average treatment time of five sessions"8 to comprehensively treat PTSD.

1989 was the first year that controlled studies investigating the treatment of PTSD were published. Besides Shapiro's article, three other studies9,10,11 were published. The Brom et al.9 study compared the results of psychodynamic therapy, hypnotherapy, and desensitization and provided an average of 16 sessions. It found clinically significant treatment effects for 60% of the civilian participants, with no differences between the conditions. The Cooper and Clum10 study compared flooding to standard care in a Veterans Administration Hospital. They reported moderate clinical effects after 6-14 sessions, with a 30% patient drop-out rate. The Keane et al.11 (1989) study compared flooding to a wait-list control for veteran participants and reported moderate clinical effects after 14-16 sessions. [See
Comparison of EMDR and Cognitive Behavioral Therapies for more information.]

Shapiro continued to develop this treatment approach, incorporating feedback from clients and other clinicians who were using EMD. In 1991 she changed the name to Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing12 (EMDR) to reflect the insights and cognitive changes that occurred during treatment, and to identify the information processing theory that she developed to explain the treatment effects.

Because EMDR was an effective treatment, achieving results very quickly for many clients, Shapiro felt an ethical obligation to teach other clinicians so that individuals suffering from PTSD could find relief. However, EMDR was still experimental since it had not received independent confirmation through other controlled studies. She attempted to resolve this ethical dilemma by teaching EMDR only to licensed clinicians, and by ensuring that everyone who learned the approach was trained by the EMDR Institute in the same model. That way safeguards would be in place, clinicians would be taught to inform clients of its status, and a feedback system would allow everyone that was trained to get the most up to date information. In 1995, after other controlled studies had been published, the label "experimental" and the training restrictions were removed and a textbook of procedures was published13 . Shapiro has been severely criticized by some for her method of dissemination, because she initially restricted training and because she taught an experimental procedure. However, these critics ignore the APA ethics code mandated responsibilities of an innovator to determine training practices and the fact that even as late as 1998, there were no treatments for PTSD that were designated as well-established and empirically validated15. At that time, independent reviewers for the Clinical Psychology Division of the American Psychological Association identified three treatments with "probable efficacy." These were EMDR, exposure therapy, and stress inoculation therapy.

Since the initial studies were published in 1989, hundreds of case studies have been published, and there have been numerous controlled outcome studies16 . These studies have demonstrated EMDR's effectiveness in PTSD treatment and EMDR is now recognized as efficacious in the treatment of PTSD [See Efficacy of EMDR and Summary of PTSD Studies].

A professional association, independent from Shapiro and the EMDR Institute was founded in 1995 to establish standards for training and practice. The EMDR International Association (EMDRIA) declares that its primary objective is "to establish, maintain and promote the highest standards of excellence and integrity in Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) practice, research and education." Information about EMDRIA is available at www.emdria.org

Despite its demonstrated effectiveness, similar to most new approaches in psychotherapy, EMDR has been surrounded by controversy. While some critics have labeled EMDR a "
pseudoscience" others have commented that these conclusions are based on misinterpretations of the literature [see "Confusion, Misinformation, and Charges of "Pseudoscience" ]. Another area of debate is the role of eye movements in EMDR [See Eye Movements and Alternate Dual Attention Stimuli and What has research determined about EMDR's eye movement component? In the Commonly Asked Questions section.

Shapiro developed an information processing theory1,2,3 to explain and predict the treatment effects seen with EMDR. This theoretical model also describes the development of personality, psychological problems and mental disorders. The following is a simplified description of Shapiro's theory.

All humans are understood to have a physiologically-based information processing system. This can be compared to other body systems, such as digestion in which the body extracts nutrients for health and survival. The information processing system processes the multiple elements of our experiences and stores memories in an accessible and useful form. Memories are linked in networks that contain related thoughts, images, emotions, and sensations. Learning occurs when new associations are forged with material already stored in memory.

When a traumatic or very negative event occurs, information processing may be incomplete, perhaps because strong negative feelings or dissociation interfere with information processing. This prevents the forging of connections with more adaptive information that is held in other memory networks. For example, a rape survivor may "know" that rapists are responsible for their crimes, but this information does not connect with her feeling that she is to blame for the attack. The memory is then dysfunctionally stored without appropriate associative connections and with many elements still unprocessed. When the individual thinks about the trauma, or when the memory is triggered by similar situations, the person may feel like she is reliving it, or may experience strong emotions and physical sensations. A prime example is the intrusive thoughts, emotional disturbance, and negative self-referencing beliefs of posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD).

It is not only major traumatic events, or "large-T Traumas" that can cause psychological disturbance. Sometimes a relatively minor event from childhood, such as being teased by one's peers or disparaged by one's parent, may not be adequately processed. Such "small-t traumas" can result in personality problems and become the basis of current dysfunctional reactions.

Shapiro proposes that EMDR can assist to successfully alleviate clinical complaints by processing the components of the contributing distressing memories. These can be memories of either small-t or large-T traumas. Information processing is thought to occur when the targeted memory is linked with other more adaptive information. Learning then takes place, and the experience is stored with appropriate emotions, able to appropriately guide the person in the future. A variety of neurobiological contributors have been proposed4,5,6,7,8


 


1Shapiro, F. (1989). Efficacy of the eye movement desensitization procedure in the treatment of traumatic memories. Journal of Traumatic Stress, 2, 199-223.

2Shapiro, F. & Forrest, M. (1997). EMDR The Breakthrough Therapy for Overcoming Anxiety, Stress and Trauma. New York: Basic Books

5Shapiro, F. (1989). Eye movement desensitization: A new treatment for post-traumatic stress disorder. Journal of Behavior Therapy and Experimental Psychiatry, 20, 211-217.

6Shapiro, F. (1989). Efficacy of the eye movement desensitization procedure in the treatment of traumatic memories. Journal of Traumatic Stress, 2, 199-223

7Lohr, J. M., Tolin, D. F., & Lilienfeld, S. O. (1998). Efficacy of eye movement desensitization and reprocessing: Implications for behavior therapy. Behavior Therapy, 29, 123-156.

6Shapiro, F. (1989). Efficacy of the eye movement desensitizatioin procedure in the treatment of traumatic memories. Journal of Traumatic Stress, 2, 199-223.

9Brom, D., Kleber, R. J., & Defares, P. B. (1989). Brief psychotherapy for posttraumatic stress disorders. Journal of Consulting and Clinical Psychology, 57, 607-612


10Cooper, N.A., & Clum, G.A. (1989). Imaginal flooding as a supplementary treatment for PTSD in combat veterans: A controlled study. Behavior Therapy, 20, 381-391.

11Keane, T.M., Fairbank, J.A., Caddell, J.M., & Zimmering, R.T., (1989). Implosive (flooding) therapy reduces symptoms of PTSD in Vietnam combat veterans. Behavior Therapy, 20, 245-260.

12Shapiro, F., (1991). Eye movement desensitization & reprocessing procedure: From EMD to EMD/R-a new treatment model for anxiety and related traumata. Behavior Therapist, 14, 133-135.


13Shapiro, F. (1995). Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing: Basic Principles, Protocols and Procedures (1st edition). New York: Guilford Press

15Chambless, D.L., Baker, M.J., Baucom, D.H., Beutler, L.E., Calhoun, K.S., Crits-Christoph, P., Daiuto, A., DeRubeis, R., Detweiler, J., Haaga, D.A.F., Bennett Johnson, S., McCurry, S., Mueser, K.T., Pope, K.S., Sanderson, W.C., Shoham, V., Stickle, T., Williams, D.A., & Woody, S.R. (1998). Update on empirically validated therapies, II., The Clinical Psychologist, 51, 3-16.

16For complete listing see See Shapiro, F., (2001). Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing: Basic Principles, Protocols and Procedures (2nd edition). New York: Guilford Press

 

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Yearning

05.24.06 (4:54 pm)   [edit]
  
 





There is a yearning in the human heart
Often going without a name,
Experienced as a wound by some,
By others a simple longing.
An inner thirst,
Unquenchable,
Showing no mercy to the Soul,
Allowing no permanent rest
Since it cannot be owned
But only sought.
This yearning points beyond what we have,
It almost seems that we are also pursued.
That being also yearned for
Is what draws us forward.
Seeking union with that which has no name,
Nor form,
Yet present in the inner emptiness
Speaking of home
A place we know is there
Even though never seen.

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Hatred

05.23.06 (2:00 pm)   [edit]
  
 



 


Hatred goes down like a fine wine
Smooth to the taste
It seems so right
So just,
It fits like a well worn shoe
Giving a strange kind of comfort
To hate that which is other,
No responsibility need be taken
Since it is deserved.


Revenge it’s first born
Gives a rush of pleasure
The striking out
Repaying back double
For the wrong done.
Bathing in the others pain
Saying it is justice,
Deserved,
Right.


Yes something so easy,
So natural,
Can lead to such pain,
Doubled,
The cycle speeds up with each turning,
The emotions growing sharper,
Pointed,
Spreading out to all the others
Who also deserve to be punished


This dance violent,
Now this one leading,
then the other,
The whirlwind of pain increasing;
The wheel,
Will one day stop,
Peace achieved,
When at last
There is no one left to dance.

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An evolutionary philosopher's case against religion overpromises, underdelivers

05.23.06 (12:57 pm)   [edit]
Christianity Today

Trapped with Dr. X
An evolutionary philosopher's case against religion overpromises, underdelivers.
Reviewed by John Wilson | posted 05/23/2006 09:30 a.m.

BREAKING THE SPELL

Breaking The Spell:
Religion as a
Natural Phenomenon

by Daniel C. Dennett
Viking
464 pp.; $25.95

There's a species of villain, familiar to moviegoers and readers of fiction, distinguished by a blend of high intelligence, suave charm, and pathological narcissism. Above all, such characters love the sound of their own voices, and stories in which they play a leading role often climax with a scene in which Dr. X (let's call him) is gloating over his triumph—and then, at last, gets his comeuppance.

Reading Daniel Dennett's new book is like being trapped in an elevator with Dr. X for more than 400 pages. If John Shelby Spong is the aging poster child for liberal Christianity and Phillip Johnson is the pit bull of Intelligent Design, Dennett is the professional bad boy of evolutionary philosophy. In contrast to many of his peers, he is willing and able to write lucidly for a general audience as well as for the scholarly guild, and he relishes his role as an urbane provocateur. ("Belief can be explained in much the way that cancer can," he told interviewer Deborah Solomon recently in The New York Times Magazine.) He is perhaps best known as the author of Consciousness Explained (1991) and Darwin's Dangerous Idea (1995); for a bracing response, see philosopher Alvin Plantinga's May/June 1996 review in Books & Culture entitled "Dennett's Dangerous Idea". You may also recall the brief hubbub that attended Dennett's July 2003 op-ed in The New York Times, "The Bright Stuff," in which he endorsed "the efforts of some agnostics, atheists, and other adherents of naturalism to coin a new name for us nonbelievers," as he recalls in Breaking the Spell. The term was bright (as in "Richard Dawkins and Daniel Dennett are prominent brights"). As far as I can tell, it hasn't really caught on. But give it time.

Taboo? What Taboo?
So what "spell" does Dennett have in mind in his new book? He tells us: "The spell that I say must be broken is the taboo against a forthright, scientific, no-holds-barred investigation of religion as one natural phenomenon among many." Now many readers—believers and nonbelievers alike—will scratch their heads and wonder: Taboo? What taboo? I entered college in 1966. Among the classes I took my first year were courses in sociology, anthropology, and psychology. In all of those instances, religion was treated as a natural phenomenon, and passing references to religion in other classes took the same tack.

But of course, this approach to religion predated the 1960s. It flourished during the Enlightenment and really came into its own in the 19th century in a range of disciplines, including anthropology. It's true that this view of religion "as one natural phenomenon among many" has never been uncontested, and in certain contexts—by candidates for President of the United States, for example—can't even be expressed without causing an uproar. But the notion that there is in place a "taboo" such as Dennett speaks of is simply preposterous.

Now Daniel Dennett is a learned man, and one who doesn't readily suffer correction. Why would he say such a thing, so easily refuted? Well, he hedges.

Acknowledging this very question, he compares the "centuries of insightful and respectful scholarship about the history and variety of religious phenomena" that have come before us to "the bounty gathered by dedicated bird-watchers and other nature lovers before Darwin's time"—the work of amateurs, in other words, quite useful in its way, but not up to snuff, nothing like the really modern stuff we can do today.

Yet when he cites Richard Dawkins and Pascal Boyer and other contemporaries who exemplify the sort of work that needs to be done to "break the spell," we find that many of their arguments are not obviously distinguishable from the work of those amiable duffers of earlier times. When Dennett tells us, "One of the surprising discoveries of modern psychology is how easy it is to be ignorant of your own ignorance," we may be surprised only by the notion that this comes as news. Certainly Sophocles was well acquainted with this finding of "modern psychology." And when we think of this in relation to religious belief in particular, we may recall the German philosopher Ludwig Feuerbach's enormously influential book The Essence of Christianity (1841), in which, having argued that God is merely a projection of human fears and desires, Feuerbach observes: "This does not mean that religious people are themselves immediately aware of the fact that their consciousness of God is simply their own self-consciousness. In fact, the absence of such an awareness is the distinctive mark of religion."

Dennett has other hedges, which we do not have space to consider here. Suffice it to say that they are equally unpersuasive. Breaking the Spell takes its place in a long tradition of naturalistic critiques of religion. I don't think it is likely to significantly change the terms of an argument that is sure to persist long after our fleeting present moment. In the meantime, in due course, Dennett and I and you, too, will find out who was right.

John Wilson is editor of Books & Culture.

Copyright © 2006 Christianity

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Leo

05.22.06 (2:49 pm)   [edit]





He is not the person he was once,
Cannot say what he wants,
Yet still knows he has something to say.
He stutters
The frustration showing in his eyes
Aching to say something,
Anything that forms a complete thought,
But he cannot.
He is present,
Aware,
Just in a different way,
That makes him seem absent
To those who perceive from outside.
He knows,
He feels,
In ways different than before,
Yet the fire,
Humor,
And love still shine forth.
He reaches to tap me on the shoulder,
Smiling gently,
Unable to say what he is feeling;
It is enough.
He sees that I understand.
Being with him,
Watching him struggle
Is like learning a new language,
A new way of seeing,
Perhaps that is why he is a teacher
Unknown to himself,
An icon of Christ in the world.

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Out to Lunch

05.21.06 (9:14 am)   [edit]
  
 



About a year and a half ago, when Leo, and Damian, first went into Morningside, I would take them out to lunch once a week.  They both enjoyed it; the time spent with them was very pleasant and happy.  They liked to go and get hamburgers, or perhaps a hotdog, and afterwards go over to Dairy Queen for some ice cream.  They loved the ice cream Sundays with lots of syrup on it.   This went one for a few weeks, but I had to stop since the director of Morningside told me that Damian would come back agitated, and would want to go out again.  Since they both spent a lot of time together; their rooms were next to each other, the trips had to stop; couldn’t just go in and take Leo, and leave Damian behind.  So when the time came for a visit, I just stayed there, and talked and joked with them.  Damian loved to joke, and Leo is a very good listener, so they made a good pair. 

Now that Damian is gone, it seemed a good idea to start taking Leo out once a week again.  He became excited when we stepped out onto the parking lot and started to laugh, saying it has been a long time since he was outside.  We went to the Bugaboo steak house near the Mall, went early before it got crowded.   Got him some chicken strips, French fries and some ice tea.  He can easily eat those items, sometimes he has trouble knowing how to eat certain foods, but he did fine with his meal.  Afterward he had two scoops of ice cream.  He loved it; liked the music, the waitress made a fuss over him, called him honey, which made him laugh; he laughs easily.

I wanted to take him for a walk.  The horse park was one place I thought he would like to go, but when we discussed it after a fashion, he stated that he wanted to walk thru the mall.   So off we went.  He does not remember anything about the area, so each trip is a new adventure for him.  Took him to a pet store, he became enamored with an African Grey parrot, and spent some time making soothing noises at it.  Loved the water fountains and kept remarking how big the mall is.  After a while he began showing signs of fatigue, so I took him back to Morningside, and was happy to see that he was glad to get back.  I took him back to his room, hugged him, and he laid down for a nap.

I am very happy that he likes it there, the staff is made up of some terrific people, and they spend a lot of time with him.  Leo likes to be read to, and also prayed with, which some on the staff have told me they like to do with him.  One of the ministers from hospice that goes there has learned to say the Hail Mary with him, which being Catholic is firmly embedded in his long term memory, and even if he at times cannot say it with her, knows it in his head and can follow along.

Odd about Leo, look at him one way and he seems not to be there, but listen and look into his eyes, and he is there looking out trying to communicate.  Yes he is like a child, but the man is also there, his complexity has not gone or diminished, it is just expressed in different ways.


 

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I wonder

05.20.06 (1:36 pm)   [edit]
  
 





I often wonder what it will be like for me when I get old.  As I take care of my patients I often picture myself in their position in the not so distant future, and wonder if I won’t be saying over and over again “so that was what it was like”. 

 
Last night trying to clean Edmund, he got very angry at me, since he had no idea what I was doing.  He did not want me to take off his wet clothes, or clean him.  I spent about 30 minutes just talking softly to him, explaining what I was doing, which at first did no good whatsoever.  It is difficult to sometimes do what must be done when the one being helped does not understand.  He finally calmed down, and even helped me; I guess his short term memory can sometimes be helpful, since I am sure the memory would be a painful one for him if he retained it.

 
Old age is a challenge for all involved, the relationship complex and trying, but at the same time enriching for the care giver and at times for the one receiving the care.  One learns to let go, if that is possible, the other, the caregiver, learns patience, and hopefully the ability to try to listen on a deeper level, that is often needed for those who have not yet reached that stage in life, where everything has to be done for them.

 
Edmund at this time can only eat soft foods, he is starting to have trouble swallowing so he needs to be hand fed.  We give him oatmeal, eggs, mashed potatoes; well anything soft and easily chewable, will little chance of choking, and he does not seem to mind the change in diet.  As usual his appetite is still good.

 
I will continue to wonder what it will be like when I am there needing help.  Sometimes I am peaceful about it, at others times fear rears its head to sneer at me.  Such is our journey, being a pilgrim is not easy, but that seems to be what we are.

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Quenching

05.19.06 (4:29 pm)   [edit]
  
 



The sun beats down
Upon the one who thirsts,
Throat parched,
Tongue swollen,
Screaming for cool water,
The mind obsessed,
Growing deeper
Each moment tormented.

The stream was heard from afar
The beauty of the sound
Greater
More thrilling
Than any sound ever heard,
The body frantic
Its desire
All consuming

With a joyful noise,
The crystal clear treasure
Flowed past rapidly,
Its smell intoxicating,
Almost leading to madness,
Until the hands cupped
The precious liquid,
Drinking

The pleasure
Greater
More fulfilling
Than ever thought possible
As life
Once again became strong
With the water of life
Once thought of as common.

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Unraveling

05.18.06 (2:20 pm)   [edit]
   
 






Deep down in the depths
In places perceived as dark,
Hidden from view,
Maybe forgotten
Or perhaps feared,
Is a knot,
Gideon like,
Tightly wrought,
Unbreakable,
Protective,
Of the one who is its creator,
Even if brought forth unknown
In ignorance.
Purposeful none the less
Even if its time is outlived,
It cannot be undone.
The burden heavy,
If not felt,
Its influence seen
The effects witnessed
By those who know the one suffering,
Who perhaps see their reflection
In the dark mirror presented before them.


Deeper yet
Uncreated
Is love deeper than the ocean,
Stronger than death,
With infinite patience
Waits in silence
For the time of the great unraveling,
The awakening,
The knot at rest
Undone at last,
The constriction over
Breath comes
Freely.




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Rain

05.15.06 (3:04 pm)   [edit]
  
 





The rain comes in waves,
Dancing on the pavement,
Following the lead of the wind
As they swirl together
In perfect sync;
The world awash
In cooling wetness,
Making one think
Of the beauty,
The perfection,
Of the sound of rain
On foliage,
Or pavement


The plants exulting,
Life giving waters
Soaking the parched earth,
Giving life,
Strength,
The energy to go on
About the business of growth,
To revel in life,
Existence,
To simply stand out for a season
Before the earth once again
Claims its own,
To return to its source.

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A visit with Leo

05.15.06 (10:53 am)   [edit]

 

A vist with Leo magnify

Saw Leo yesterday at the nursing home.  He seemed to be a little agitated, and he tried to explain what he was going thru during my visit.  Leo kept telling me of an incident that was witnessed that happened between his parents, which obviously caused him a lot of anxiety when it occurred.  It sounded like he was reliving some childhood memory, thinking it happened that day.  It is very frustrating for him to talk, he can’t get the words out that he wants to say, and so I just sat and listened.  The best way to let Leo know that he is being listened too is to learn to ask the right questions.  One of the best to try is to describe the emotional state he seems to be presenting.  So questions like “so you feel angry” about what happened, or other questions along those lines seem to make him feel that he is being heard.  Sometimes I just give a one word response, but focusing on the emotional content helps me to stay present to him, since his sentences often do not make any sense at all.

I think he also misses Damian’s presence, but does not have the language to express it. Perhaps it is just an absence that he seems to be experiencing, without being able to put a face on it.  They used to spend a lot of time together; their rooms were next to each other, and like to be in each others company.  Damian used to like to make Leo laugh, he was a jokester, and Leo seemed happier when he was around him, listening intently, if not participating in the verbal goings on that Damian was so good at.

Over all he seems content where he is at, and one day I asked him if he would like to return home.  The answer surprised me since it was so clear.  He said that another move would be too much, he likes it there, and does not want to go somewhere else.  It seems he remembers the disorientation that he went thru when he was admitted a year and a half ago. 

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Too Late

05.12.06 (5:24 pm)   [edit]
  
 





Many do not know,
The separation from loved ones,
The reasons no matter how good,
The anger,
Pride,
Stubbornness,
Only hide the love hidden,
Deep beneath the seething anger,
To erupt after the one rejected,
Dies.

Parents who reject their children,
Sons and daughters,
 Who do not speak,
Too late learn,
As they wake
To the nightmare
Of what was lost,
Now gone forever,
The one they thought they hated,
But loved still.

The wound
That never heals,
Regret growing with each New Year,
All because of foolish pride,
And the forgetfulness
Of the horror
Of the death of a loved one
Scorned;
Now missed
More than life itself.

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Hidden chains

05.11.06 (3:38 pm)   [edit]
 
  





Two friends sit,
Afraid to say what is simply there.
The obvious unstated
Like a vast abyss,
A cold famished void
Swallows the truth that could be shared,
But no,
Fear’s hold is strong,
The manacles locked,
The key lost somewhere in life’s journey,
Hid in the desert their life has become,
Buried in the sands of time,
Rusted beyond repair.
Dying by inches,
They smile and talk of nothing,
Thinking they will live forever,
Safe in their separate prison,
Self created;
Not knowing that they are fools.

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His domain

05.09.06 (5:35 pm)   [edit]
  
 



He lays quiet,
His world small enclosed,
The bed on which he lies,
His pillows,
Cover,
Rosary,
His domain.
Weakened by lack of water,
Peace descends
Anxiety gone,
Only a need to be left in peace,
To allow the silence to envelop him,
Comforted when asked for,
And to be prayed for
While journeying
This last mile
Of a long beloved life.

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Decline

05.08.06 (2:27 pm)   [edit]
  


Frances is moving towards that appointment, which we all know more or less, is awaiting us.  He is dying.  There is no pain, he is simply wearing out, his lungs are not working well, have been shutting down for over a year, slow and sure.  Up until last week he was able to get out of bed for a few hours a day, with his oxygen tank connected to the back of his wheelchair, keeping him supplied with enough oxygen to stay alert, at least for awhile.  When in bed he uses a concentrator, which also keeps him comfortable.

When someone is in his position, placing the patient right in bed can be a job that an engineer would find daunting ( ok a slight exaggeration ), but nevertheless something that has to be thought out each time, since comfort needs change.  No matter how comfortable the bed is, when lying in it for a long time, it can become a torture if proper placement is not given attention.

Pillows, pillows, pillows, lots of them; they can give a lot of comfort.  We have to place him just so in bed, then raise his legs, and head, to a position that he feels comfortable breathing in, then place one pillow far down his back to give him more support, another behind that one, and then a small neck pillow for more support.  Pillows under his arms, not touching his chest to help with breathing, and then one under the legs to keep his heels off of the mattress; heels can get very sore with just lying still for long periods in one place, no matter how soft the mattress is.  No matter how well placed, sliding does happen so this has to be done over every couple of hours.  Francis has a call button, which he is not shy to use, thank God, so he calls us when it is time to “ pull him up ”, as he puts it.

Skin check is important, and we have Tegaderm to put over any sheer marks that may arise when moving him up in bed.  They happen no matter how hard we try to avoid them.  The Tegaderm is very good for this kind of thing.

He is at this time not drinking; he aspirates when doing it, and would rather not bother with it.  He is eating some soft foods; two actually, applesauce and oatmeal, which he loves.  Mostly it is for giving him some comfort meds; for anxiety and sleep, so he seldom eats more than a few bites.  I think he does it to give us something to do, make us feel useful.

We talk; he likes things to be up front, so I let him know what is going on.  He knows that not drinking will eventually take him, and he seems at peace now, though the waiting is difficult for him.  That in-between-place is hard, waiting, not knowing really how to die, but knowing that it is going to happen.  He ask me “when”, and I say “soon”, but can’t tell him the exact time, perhaps in a few days.  He prays, looks at the crucifix on his wall, and just stays in God’s presence.  His peace is growing as his number is getting closer to being called, I hope I am with him, holding his hand and praying.  I have journeyed  this far, I would like to go the whole way with him.

He seems like a child now, when I move him in bed he is so little and light that it almost makes me cry, he is such a beautiful little man, who himself does not know how beloved he is by many people.  He is childlike, but also very astute about life, I have learned a lot from him.

It will be soon, and I will be sad for awhile, but we are all called to that appointment, perhaps that is what life is about, the waiting and yes the fear that can come with it.  Well you can’t have life without death, so it is worth the trip…..Francis thanks so.

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The inner world

05.06.06 (9:12 am)   [edit]




The inner life


When thinking about the inner life, the vibrant pulsating world that we all have that is hidden from others, the picture that comes to mind is one of a very large jigsaw puzzle with all the pieces scattered around, and the main focus of that inner world is to try to put the pieces back together again.


 Fragmentation is a good word to use, when thinking about this reality, different aspects of the inner man, some parts at war with others, some aspects desiring death, and others life.    This can cause the experience to arise where each person can become an enigma to them selves, and this is what jump starts the journey for many, the simple trying to understand what this inner complexity points towards.   That inner conflict creates a great deal of energy, some creative even if in a chaotic way at times, some destructive, manifested in addictions that can only lead to some kind of a downward spiral, ending only in death, promising life until the very end.  For some it can lead to depression or even despair if the distance between the one who observes, and is aware and the inner turmoil is lost.  It is difficult to come to the understanding that we are simply more than what we experience about ourselves.


It is self-awareness, the ability to step back and simply observe this inner drama, that is often projected on to the movie screen, or played out in art, and books, that can give the key to dealing with the inner chaos and not allowing the self to be swallowed up and cut off from the outer world.  Since we are creatures that have to interrupt what we see and experience, this leads to the so called real world being just another extension of the drama being played out inward.  It is like reality becomes a mirror asking us to deal with what we see and to not simply react.  This is of course very difficult, and for most it takes a life time to develop what is needed to do this in the most rudimentary manner.  Yes it seems we are locked into our own subjectivity with no way out, at least it can seem that way at times.  In reality most people experience times when the inner world is not constricted, and the ability to truly be present to others and the world is possible. Unfortunately this is based more on certain moods that come and go; it has nothing to do with maturity or having insight into what is either going or, or what needs to be done.


The puzzle slowly gets put together as life moves on, but this can cause the inner struggle, and awareness, to become sharper, and more painful, since the opposing elements in the psyche become more apparent.  So growth can often seem to be losing ground, when in fact, the simple ability to see ones self truthfully is all that is happening.  This can be freeing since self knowledge, while not leading to more peace, the opposite really, it can slowly turn life around to something much more beautiful and fulfilling, since a healing can only be the fruit of this kind of knowledge.  Relationships change, the ability to listen increases, defenses are less, since there is not so much to defend anymore.  It is ok to be less than perfect, and also for others to see that.


The consul, to treat others as you would like to be treated, is probably one of the best ways to speed up the process to a deeper experience of freedom in dealing with others and with life in general.  A great deal of suffering that is carried though life is not necessary, all it does is to keep the one experiencin